Strong Enough

We've been home for a week now and life is marching right along. The days are a blur of pumping, bottle feeding, tube feeding, changing diapers, occupying the big kids and blissful moments of holding and gazing at my sweet girl. I've been reading way more about PWS on the internet than I should and I can't help but feel overwhelmed about the future. The challenges are many and I could easily list the worries that I have which accompany each one, but mostly I wonder how I will ever be able to be the mom she needs and deserves. I think I need to be picked up and thrown (very hard) out of my flesh because its just not doing much for me right now. 

Matthew West's song Strong Enough is my anthem right now. It just so darn hard to remember that God didn't put this in my lap and leave me to figure out out on my own. I don't suppose God gave me this because I am strong enough but precisely because I am not. It requires a great deal of discipline for me to remember each time I get scared or depressed or overwhelmed (which is often these days) that its not my job to fix it all, but to trust in Him as He does His work through it. Especially His work in me. He is, after all, strong enough

Strong Enough by Matthew West
You must
You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be
everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

Well, maybe
Maybe that's the point
To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I'm finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that's when I start looking up
And reaching out

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing
But I'm still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong
When I am weak

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Oh, yeah

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
Strong enough

Happy One Month Birthday, Aerin!

Today we celebrate Aerin's one month birthday! It's hard to believe that everything we've been through has only spanned 4 short weeks! We thought this special day would be the perfect day to introduce our blog dedicated to the journey we've found ourselves on since Aerin's birth. From those first frightening hours when we didn't know what was wrong to the day that we found out she has Prader Willi Syndrome, it was our prayer that Aerin's life would bring glory to the Lord. We have found, at each step, that He has done just that: used our little girl to magnify His goodness in a broken world and to draw people close to Him. We hope you will walk with us as we walk in Him!

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